Trouble in Paradise
Beautiful blue skies, a roaring ocean, sandy beaches ... they seemed to mock the chaos that was this last weekend.
Can life long friendships be broken?
Are there some relationships that perservere despite repeated abuses?
Will he ever change?
Will she ever learn?
Will I?
Love,
to hope,
to thrice shattered dreams,
to disbelief,
to compassion,
to frustration,
to anger,
to disgust,
to revulsion,
to numbness,
...
to sadness
...
and so I find myself today quite tired.
"get me off this crazy thing... called love." - Charlie Mackenzie
Can life long friendships be broken?
Are there some relationships that perservere despite repeated abuses?
Will he ever change?
Will she ever learn?
Will I?
Love,
to hope,
to thrice shattered dreams,
to disbelief,
to compassion,
to frustration,
to anger,
to disgust,
to revulsion,
to numbness,
...
to sadness
...
and so I find myself today quite tired.
"get me off this crazy thing... called love." - Charlie Mackenzie
posted by Miroslav at 5:32 PM
6 Comments:
Miroslav,
Thank you for being there. It was a crazy messed up time but in spite of it we managed to laugh, gain agreater knowledge of who we are and appreciate family...
Your poem says it so well, the contradiction and feeling of helplessness.
In spite of myself, I continue to hope for goodness and rightness and recognize that it still depends on choices so much of the time.
Wasn't intending to write a poem here, but now I look at it and it kinda formed its way in to one, didn't it?
Yeah, I'm with you on the fact that I still hope for the best. But damn I'm mad. And frustrated. And all those things I wrote.
I love you guys though. It was a great time for me to get a bit closer to your husband, and even though the trip itself sucked, I'm glad that we were able to be there.
Make him pay for your air fare, hotel and accomodations! And next time, just go to City Hall!!! Put no more than a quarter in the parking meter and see what 15-minutes brings...
Hi Miroslav,
I must comment on this sad chapter.
1) Sadly, I've often used this relationship as an example to my daughter saying "Never talk a man into marrying you! If he doesn't want to make a vow before God, to love and to cherish forever, then leave him be.
2)I've heard women call up Dr Laura and complain that their man won't follow through with marriage after years and years of an engagement going on forever it seems. Dr Laura tells them "If you want to get married, find someone else. This man clearly doesn't want to marry you." The women often answer "But I've invested so much time!"
Well, bad investment, wasn't it?!
I fear the years of wasted youth just never enters this couple's mind.
3)When a person uses the "God card" to justify their mean and cruel behavior, it makes others around that person feel dirty and slimey.
4)Read 1Cor 13...Now that! is love.
Right on Marita!
Love from
Miro's Momma
anonymous,
Yes... part of me screams that same thing.
Marita,
I know what you mean. Agreed on all acounts.
...
The most difficult part of all of this for me to swallow is the painful breaking of the long time friendship between me and the heartbreaker. There comes a time when repeated failures in any relationship simply become too much for the relationship to survive. I believe our friendship COULD be rekindled/healed in a heartbeat and I desperately hope for it in all honesty... but in this circumstance, I think the healing has to be initiated by HIM. There have been so many times since this Hawaii trip that I've wanted to call my buddy and see how he is doing. Or send him a text message just letting him know I'm thinking about him and wish the best for him. I want to love on him, even though he has screwed all of this up so much. But... I have, for now, decided that I need to give him space and opportunity to reach out to me in his own time. I hope that he values our friendship the same way I do. If he does, then he will get in touch with me at some point.
Until that day, I will be saddened when I think of all the memories, laughter, tears, prayers, and challenges in life we faced together and how much damage he has caused to our friendship.
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